“I saw a boy. In a girl's body who was hiding and doing a good job at it…"
In celebration of National Coming Out Day on Monday, Nevaeh Jolie bravely opened up on his Instagram account about his transgender journey and uncovered he will be soon starting hormone therapy.
“It’s National coming out day, 🙂 nice… well… for a while now I’ve been afraid.. for a long time I would pray my thoughts would lessen, I would fall to the floor and cry and ask God why… was it ever going to stop?” his caption reads.
“I would talk to myself in public just to calm my anxiety, have to run to the restroom and check in with the version of me I felt no one else could see… even though I never felt like I wasn’t myself, engaging with ppl, I just knew nobody knew what I thought of myself when I looked in the mirror.”
“And why I was so sad. I saw a boy. In a girl’s body who was hiding and doing a good job at it…but there would also be times I just felt like everyone around me knew my secret. I created a version of myself that was toxic, I demonized myself, and convinced myself I’d never be able to love.”
“After moving away from home and just experiencing the world and how my dysphoria (before I even knew what that was) worsened, I finally did What I was dreading … I looked up the word ‘transgender’. From there I dived into so many stories and cried so much I could feel so much more than I ever had,” the statement continues.
“I had to come to terms with myself. And talk to God , thought if I just came out to my immediate circle it would be fine it would be cool maybe even eventually it would go away… I was in love and that another story but… 3 years later ive broke down….got up.. after intense therapy, I have joined communities, I have been more and more vocal with my friends and family…ive survived…”
“And now… I’m LIVING 😌✨,” adding that in two days the singer will begin his hormone therapy. “It feel like I’m saying goodbye but I’m saying hello. I’m Nevaeh. The mf playa 🥲”