What could be the reason behind it?
Will Smith reveals the fraught setting of his early life in Philadelphia with his father, Willard Carroll Smith Sr., and mother, Caroline Bright, in a snippet from his new memoir, “Me,” published on PEOPLE, and how it affected his later life with his father, whom he cared for while the old man deals with cancer.
“He was violent but he was also at every game, play, and recital,” Will says of his father. “He was an alcoholic, but he was sober at every premiere of every one of my movies. He listened to every record. He visited every studio.”
“When I was nine years old, I watched my father punch my mother in the side of the head so hard that she collapsed,” he continues. “I saw her spit blood.”
When Will was taking care for his father at the end of his life, his relationship with him struck rock bottom and revealed that “darkness” developed within him, one night as he carefully wheeled him from his bedroom to the bathroom.
“The path between the two rooms goes past the top of the stairs. As a child I’d always told myself that I would one day avenge my mother.”
The actor continued to describe the frightening moment, “I paused at the top of the stairs. I could shove him down, and easily get away with it. As the decades of pain, anger, and resentment coursed then receded, I shook my head and proceeded to wheel Daddio to the bathroom.”
Will’s father died in 2016. He reflects on his decades of success as an artist and his relationship with his father, saying, “There is nothing that you can receive from the material world that will create inner peace or fulfillment.”
“In the end, it will not matter one single bit how well [people] loved you — you will only gain ‘the Smile’ based on how well you loved them.”
His new memoir entitled “Me” will be out on November 9.
Reactions to Will Smith Considered Killing His Father
I don’t want no parts in any Will Smith slander or memes. That man recently has been talking about how he wanted to end himself and now how thought about killing his Dad? Nah, this NOT the Will Smith we know. Hope that man is ight cause it’s a lot of 🚩 🚩🚩— beefALERT (@beefalertnow) November 3, 2021
Will Smith reveals he contemplated killing his dad to avenge his mom— Mamba Out ✌🏾✌🏾 (@kcjj_04) November 3, 2021
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Will Smith contemplated killing himself after he started going to the gym and also once thought about killing his cancer-ridden father for allegedly beating the crap out of his mother. Will thought he could get away with murder because he’s the biggest actor in the world lol— МОСКОУЙЦ (Kenya government official) 🍂 (@iFortknox) November 4, 2021
Who hasn't wanted to kill their father? https://t.co/rNDapLbZia pic.twitter.com/hxOd93qykq— SirLeeJay (@SirLeeJay) November 3, 2021
// abuse— Josh (@Joshhhhhh1548) November 4, 2021
i mean if i had an abusive father that beat me, my mom and my siblings regularly, i would probably be thinking the same thing tbh https://t.co/kBqbygdO6H
"After he witnessed him abusing his mother" okay reasonable https://t.co/SgXAJD7fVr— Figzathoth, The Blind Idiot Fur (@FigEnabler) November 4, 2021